The thing is I'm angry about something I can't talk about to anyone so it's
doing my head in. I've been told I can't tell *anyone* and this has been
going on for two years. Two years of stuff I can't speak about even
anonymously. The frustration is ridiculous... I've been left isolated in
this limbo waiting for the moment when I can tell people what's going on
out
there. God knows why - Just two more weeks and hopefully they won't have
any
further hold on me [not that they have really it's just cir***stances and
loyalty that's stopping me maybe]. I've been so badly mistreated and I'm
not
the only one - even though I tried to make a stand I'm feeling isolated
and
unsup****ted by some of the very people I'm doing this for.
I've lost so many things through this and I can't list the losses because
I've been gagged.
And I can't even swear or smash stuff up. Partly because it would be self
defeating and partly because I don't swear, not really. It feels stifling
and frustrating and kind of claustrophobic to be stuck in this situation -
no movement and no help. I just have to wait and wait and wait.
I can see why people go postal.
Forget I said that.
