There are several interesting points;
A psycic told me when i was in my teens that in all six of my previous
lives I WAS a man,years later my doctor told me that 'the masculine
part of your personality is well developed,but the feminine parts of
my personality,needed more nurturing"of course i thought back to what
the psycic had said years earlier,and the fact I have three older
brothers (my mother died very young),worked in a field that was one of
the last fields for women to do(I was the only woman in a team of 18
men) and that my hobby was fixing up my car, building up my home for
my daughter and myself,decorating,cooking,cleaning and raising my
daughter by myself.these experiences actually triggered the more(so
called) feminine nurturing,tender,parts of my personality.just as a
footnote,the men that i worked with were more curious then offened
that I had chosen their field,other women who tried to fit,didn't,I
fit in perfect,I was the one with bandaids and asperine,and could
laugh and join into the jokes,without offence.
I am a strong personality,and very physically strong,so 'being' a man
would indeed save me from the label of '*****',which I don't deserve
but get,because i stand up for myself.(something long considered
unfeminine in my generation)
having one,missing one,wanting one....THAT struck a note!
moving away from a unhealthy relation****p,missing the 'one that got
away',and wanting one(there is somone that I like,but I will not start
something,until all the business is done with the last one,as a matter
of personal principle)
Perhaps it is because I am having to rely on myself,provide for
myself,and stand up for myself?kind of a symbolic 'becoming one' with
the animis?I am having to fall back on the more(so called) masculine
parts of my personality?
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